Inactive Lull
So many things happened: Japan, friends, kenduris, etc but I can’t come up with something brilliant to update here.
Gomen. I seeeeriously need unlimited broadband to maintain this at home. Sigh.
Raya Cards
Lawa sangat plak aku buat e-greetings utk GSC nih =__=;;
*sends for approval*
I’m tired of making a lot of versions due to cough komen membina cough so this time around I’m gonna do it right and all purty!
You can see em up at the site oh in about 2 weeks or so.
Pissy
My downloads aren’t working, this computer chugs like a steamengine, Firefox is being a bitch, Farm Town is loading so friggin’ slow tonight and I can’t even get episode 4 of True Blood to load!
So when one of my old random schoolmate tries to sidle up to me and ask stuff I consider personal about my coming Japan trip without a simple introductory “Hello, how have you been?” or “Hi, long time no see”… I’m going to be all pissy and rude with her regardless of whether it’s Ramadhan or not.
Isn’t it annoying when someone, whom you aren’t even chummy with during highschool in the first place, messages you out of the blue thinking you’d be all friendly now? Er hello? Do you even know me that well?
Have the decency to warm up to me first please. Then and only then you may cut to the chase and ask me who I’m going with and if you ‘know’ these friends of mine. Pffft.
It’s like an indirect breach into your personal space wtf. And I LOVE my wall-high-1m-wide No Entry Zone which is exclusive only to people I care about.
Sounding pushy and vague, I can’t even tell if she’s merely making a bad start of a cordial conversation or she seriously wants to join me and my friends. But I’d like to keep this trip ‘VIP Only’, thank you. What makes you think I’d let you jump on the bandwagon we’ve worked so hard to build, huh?
Just the other day I told my twinnie on how I deal with friends I’ve lost contact with. But this is an exception, k? Our conversations were like so few that I doubt it could reach 1 hour totalled up.
Ah Long Cometh
I hate PTPTN.
They sent a nonsensical letter telling me since I haven’t paid my debt for months there is a ‘tunggakan’ and therefore I am required to pay the outstanding amount within ‘EMPAT BELAS (14) HARI‘ from the day this said letter was printed.
It was dated 24 July 2009.
I received it yesterday, 4 August 2009.
Tell me, should I blast their hotline and spill whatever swearword I could come up with at their stupendously idiotic system?
F***! There isn’t even an indicator in the letter nor the system (E-FES) which states what the bloody hell that ‘tunggakan’ is for. I just paid a rough figure that is close to the amount of my ‘Kos Pentadbiran Terkumpul’.
Just So You Know
| 1. Luna Sea 2. Shinhwa 3. KinKi Kids 4. Sugizo 5. Rentrer en Soi 6. MUCC 7. Pierrot 8. abingdon boys school 9. SID 10. V6 11. hide 12. Kagrra, 13. the GazettE 14. Dir en grey 15. Acid Black Cherry 16. Duel Jewel 17. D’espairsRay 18. Inoran 19. Park Hyo Shin 20. Versailles 21. Matenrou Opera 22. 12012 23. Jinkaku Radio 24. X Japan 25. NoGod 26. ExistTrace 27. DangerGang |
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Love is immeasureable. But can be ranked by importance, yes?
This is roughly my favourites. Together with whom I assume to be in future. Since I realised not many of my friends are 100% sure of who I like and prefer. I’ve been vague after all, gomen ne.
Comments:
- #6 and #14 have both excellently matured.
- #9 and #20 are by far the closest to a budding interest.
- I’m expecting #13’s DIM to be strong yet nothing new from them has surpassed NIL yet so… I say ‘Grow Up!’ or get flamed.
- #8, #15 and #17 latest releases are a bit stale but their skills are intact. boleh dimaafkan.
- #24 is here not because of their comeback or Yoshiki, but because they gifted the world with #1 and #14.
- due to my fickleness, the bottom half may change positions or get replaced without notice.
- the top 15 will remain. unless #13 & #15 goes against my expectations. tsk tsk.
- #19 is in the list cos I’m reluctant to let him go. heh.
For some reason I can’t explain, I feel ridiculous that I don’t have a favourite VK band or band member from this decade. If you ask me what I listen to these days, I’d gladly rattle off a few names but oh please PLEASE don’t ask me what I liked 6 months ago coz I won’t remember. The truth hurts when you get older. Hahah.
The last fandom I was sucked into was short-lived: Rentrer en Soi disbanded in 2007 then Satsuki, whom has the absolute best vocal I’ve listened to in YEARS, went and started his awaited solo career — but it sucked. Really.
So after Rentrer, not one single band has kept my attention for more than a month (ouch, so harsh!). It’s hard to hold onto one when I keep comparing everyone to Luna Sea and Rentrer… *slaps self*
More or less how I compare Shinhwa with other Kpop groups. But then Shinhwa IS the best so this is pointless.
Anyway, I no longer bother to collect scans, download lives or concerts which would eventually lead me to target any guy or ‘guy’ if you prefer that kind.
Besides, these younger Jrockers look TOO typically pretty that I can’t differentiate this face from another when instead they should be focusing on real talent, real skills and making real music! They… um… I’ll… stop bashing already =__=
ps: Tagging this post is horrendous work *howls* I’ll keep it short and sweet.
Major Pain!
I blame my lazy creaking body for allowing to be tortured by that dang masseuse guy at that dang shop in JB Sutra Mall. *rubs bruised back*
When yesterday’s urut session was over, I was sooo relieved (cos I’ve wanted a massage since last year, ya know) until um 30 minutes after I got onto the bus back to KL. Adoi. Pain. Paaaainful I tell you!
No amount of ‘mind over matter’ will be able to persuade me to go for another foot/back massage there. SAKIT giler weh! Well, unless ada org nk belanja… then can. 
Anyhoo~ What a tiring weekend. *cough* Not like I did much during the kenduri pun. But please like oh my goodness, stop telling me to eat so much food! Mak Tok’s kuah kacang campur durian (which I had 10 helpings of *gasp*), kuah durian with pulut, Pak Long’s serunding, the durians from all over Johor and then Mak’s cooking spells disaster for my low blood pressure.
Thank God I didn’t gain weight. Ugh.
Must. Not. Eat. Lunch. And. Dinner. For a week.
ps: A lot of people assume I’d follow after my Dad’s craze for the fruit and kept giving me sympathetic stares when I declined after just 3 ulas. Gile ke hape?
My Mid-2009 Wish List
- Kim Dongwan concert DVD. Photobook + Poster + Gold plate ftw.
- KinKi Kids you concert DVD. If they do release it lah. Tho it might be an autumn release.
- Domoto Koichi acting in a new drama. Because he hasn’t been in one since 2007.
- Domoto Koichi to gain weight. *pokes at his stick figure* If he wants to survive his summer tour, I suggest him to do so.
- Domoto Tsuyoshi to force-feed Domoto Koichi. Just because he’s the only one who is able to nag Kochan.
- 244 Endli-x (this is Tsuyo btw) WATERIZE concert. I should really download it steadily by now. Not enough time!
- New shoes. Because I fail at taking good care of shoes.
- Keep saving money and continue losing weight.
- Work stress to be gone.
- Someone to feed me through this weekend as my parents won’t be back til Sunday.
I have such lame goals. =____=
Bidding Time
Japanese Yen is rising from The Slump. Damn. There goes my spending money. I just hope I can afford that 500¥ kasa which I promised Aishah. At this rate I don’t think I can even eat Takoyaki. Boo!
Eh how much is pan at Disneyland anyway… Pray tell that they won’t only be selling friggin expensive boulangerie bread? Boohoohoo.
*tightens belt* Am seriously on a sliiiiim budget now that my brothers decide to get hitched in this same year. That makes 3 weddings, no, 4 weddings (including Aish’s). Crazy kah?!
So if one my good friends decide to hold theirs now, sorry lah ye. I’ve already apologised to Wate (Congrats btw) since hers will be on the same day as my stepbro’s in Gemas. ^^;;
Anyhoo~ no purchases til after October I suppose. Even so… I’d still be saving up for Dubai by then. Aiiiyoooh.
I feel bad for not buying any KinKi albums. T___T I just look in envy at other people spending on YesAsia and CDJapan nowadays.
No time, no money, no Internet. Sigh. Oh heck, NO LIFE!
Am I Happy?
I seriously don’t know. I’m never vocal about issues that concern too many factions. Keeping all this bottled emotions is really taking a toll on my body. *pokes aching body parts*
In fact, I can’t even define those so called ‘emotions’.
In Tiger & Dragon, the Rakugo shishou mentions that people should put up a smiling face even when they’re sad or angry or just plain down-and-out because it affects other people’s emotions too. Because we’re supposed to be sensitive towards other people’s feelings yadda yadda yadda.
An altruistic method although you suffer all by yourself =__=
But I’m not cut out for that BS.
These unhappy issues comes across as a pretty constant ritual until I don’t even know when I’m happy and when I’m not. I can’t even pinpoint anything.
And so I just keep trudging along to wherever the days take me.
What a bitter reminder to remind myself that I don’t even understand my own life.
Bleah
Check out my new profile page background: Happy 11th Anniversary to the 6 wacky guys we love so much!
Tension-filled week. Sigh. At this point I care shitless about what may happen, if it will be possible, or if I can tahan all this muck and all other incoming muck that gets thrown at me.
Selfish or not, in the long run I’m never going to regret this decision. Ever. The hell with what other people may say.
Wish me luck.
On a less somber mood, Kochan and Tsuyo are the two main reasons I’m still keeping up with life. Oh hey but reality check! Won’t be able to go on download sprees as carefree as I have done previously.
I might’ve missed this in the 2009 Cancer horoscope but moronic and hypocrite brothers sure seem to be a big issue this year. Huh.
So much for ending this post on a happier note.
Short-lived Joy
My twinnie gave life to my uber-spankingly new CPU! Sankiu! Now I’m gradually trying to install all the progs I need. But apparently my handwritten list of important apps (eg: Storm Codec, SE skinmaker, etc) got misplaced during last year’s cleanup =___= Guh.
I can’t even extract the 80Gig stuff from my old HDD including my PS brushes, documents, videos, bookmarks because the IDE cable is different. Bodohnye, pesal lah aku tak sedar motherboard sekarang dah tak guna cable yang tebal tu lagi?
Sooooo the downloading spree/frenzy I planned shall wait another week. Or more. Entah lah, labu. Ain’t got enough time to think about anything anymore. Hectic, hectic week… what with the two short days for work (updating gsc site) and damage control after Tuesday morning’s office break-in and then planning for this coming weekend’s MATTA Fair.
Although this may sound evil but I’m thankful I didn’t leave any valuables at the office. The HanaDan2 DVD I forgot to bring home doesn’t catch their fancy, it seems. No trauma, but it was very scary to imagine 10 criminals (the correct total as witnesses mentioned) touching my stuff, ransacking the drawers and walking about at a place I work in.
Yes, I am definitely in need of that Tokyo trip very very badly now, don’t you think? *crunches stress by watching Endlicheri’s DVD rip*
Hopefully this dream of ours comes true! Been fantasizing what to do and the myriad of autumn colours to see and what to get at Jyaniz Shop. *glomps*
Howeverrrrrrr… MUCC’s Kyuutai album sounds really good. Y_Y No money to buy that. abingdon’s going to release an album too. Nope, no money for that unless HMV Singapore will be selling a cheapo version. AND OMG COULD YOU POSSIBLY TORTURE ME IN A LESS DECEPTIVE WAY?? DONGWAN WANTS TO RELEASE A CONCERT DVD?!
=___= “Oppa, please be kind to this wifey of yours who’s dying for a holiday.”
Only Stupidity
There are anti-fans. And there are anti-fans. I would’ve understood why people will actively hate groups. Or people who dislike (yes yes, dislike) a member/some members of a group.
For instance, I used to dislike Minwoo when I started out as a Shinhwa fan. Yet as I began to accept him, I saw his true side and how special he is in Shinhwa’s dynamic structure. So I can somehow understand a lil’ bit of that anti feeling.
But making a culture of outright hating, bashing and condemning a member of the same group and then having official fanclubs like Tsuyoshi Only and Koichi Only is completely childish.
Why is it necessary to take sides? Can’t you just ignore that other person so everyone can happily go on with their -our- lives?
It’s not as if KinKi Kids hate each others’ guts! They’re the most close-knit people I’ve ever seen aside from Shinhwa oppa deul…
I vowed to ignore fandom logistics because it’s basically human nature to be insecure, but this is damn fucking stupid lah. I know I’m still a newbie, but the anger and sadness I feel everytime at issues stupid Only fans bring up to split KinKi Kids tears me up inside. They’ve been working so well together, they practically breathe each other. If these Only ‘fans’ call themselves fans, can’t they imagine the pain that BOTH Kochan and Tsuyo goes through???
What fucking delusionals, these Only fans. What’s the fucking use of going to a KinKi con if they continue to condemn the other half? Fuckers. Baik ko bagi tiket tu kat aku celaka betul!
ARRRRRGGGHHH I HATE FANDOMS!!
I thought I could be neutral about this old issue regarding whose-better-in-KK and laugh it all off, but I’m not really that calm and kindly person who can take in stride. Oh, you know me. ;P I don’t beat around the bush.
Powerless to…
… Start my damn pc.
I think this is the 3rd time I’ve replaced the power supply. Flunky lil thing. GRRR.
Should I just buy a new CPU? It’s already so friggin’ hard to look for the suitable power unit to fit into that tight hole of a case. GRRR.
Moneyhmoneyhmoneyh!
Anyhoooooo I’m off to shop for new sneakers tomorrow to ganti my unfortunate brown shoes yang kena kencing dek kucing jantan sial. GRRR.
Misguided S.O.B.
I so wish that the pot of leprechaun gold won’t be at the end of their rainbow. Because it would be an insult to us fans (neutral and hardcore alike) to have scum as them him, the head honcho of Pop Rainbow, to become Malaysia’s representative for the K-ent industry.
If he thinks his ‘holier than thou’ act will reach out to the masses even after degrading his future clients in public… then he’s seriously more whacked up than that Kpop Kingdom Tyrant Queen.
Her, I can stand. Adrian and Mina, I can still understand.
But a loser punk who banks on his so-called ‘artiste’ status but has absolutely no grace and PR skills to begin with?
Of course some things can’t be judged by that single slip of bad manners. Yet to see him being so rude in a public forum which can be viewed by an assorted bunch of people in the Kpop world just spells how plain arrogant he is.
Yeesh. And the people who work for him?? Are they even using their brains?
Ya Allah, thank you for blessing me with wonderful and sensible friends. I sure wouldn’t want to be with these blinded fools.
Hunger Pang @ 1.30am
Gah. Too lazy to brave myself for a midnight trip to the kitchen. I wish I had bought more Tako Tao if I knew I was going to get hungry again.
Nak jimat duit, but we’ll see lah if I can avoid the supermarket area -_-;
I’m supposed to make another visit to 1U to exchange today’s - last night’s - newly purchased trousers (which is 1 size too big). I had stupidly grabbed the wrong pair. Ciskek.
The prospect of having to travel via public transport to that human-congested-mall ALONE ON A SUNDAY is terrible.
Maybe I’ll stock up my SE with Danger Gang and Jinkaku Radio songs as my teman.
